Welcome to the land filled with mad people.

2012-02-09T19:14:00.003+08:00

Today:

-I got teary eyed because, I CANNOT UNDERSTAND MATHS. Throughout this year I've been blindly copying all the notes and when I want to do the exercise, mehh.

-I realised, I forgotten your birthday. But you, ahh you, thank YOU.

-I went for cross-country practice and, wahlamak, hair fall like crazy. Correction, drop more than usual. I'll be bald in a year.

-I feel dizzy the whole day. Yes, blame everything! Hee hee.

I took this picture for his moral folio thing.

PFFFTTTT.

Ni men liang ke ho hen huai.

2012-02-03T21:53:00.002+08:00

My teacher.

The big bully.

The opposite of me who sits beside me.

The girl I annoy the most (or second) by asking "why like that?" all the time during class. Sorry, my brain slow.

Thank you, Einstein the second. =D

That Mysterious Guy.

2012-02-01T21:56:00.001+08:00

Sweet smelling guys, here's a plus point for you!

Oh Darling!

2012-01-28T21:51:00.002+08:00

And this, is one person I cannot live without.

P/S: I know I look like a guy, don't laugh.

My buddy.

2012-01-27T21:14:00.003+08:00

My partner in crime.

My lover.

My punching bag.

My food buddy.

My everything buddy.

Loving you could be a crime.

2012-01-26T20:24:00.002+08:00

If you're seeing this, I sincerely miss your smile.

Random pictures.

2012-01-02T22:33:00.002+08:00

My brother's Christmas gift.

Instead of doing my homework I decided to ruin my calculator -_-|

Standing shuttlecock. Be amazed =P

Don't die of jealousy. =P

I'm still a kid.

2011-12-31T01:55:00.005+08:00

Ahhh, another 2011 is ending post.
This year felt really short and long.
This year:

1. I felt utterly useless. While everyone continued their studies, I was working my ass off(literally. figure it yourself =P)in two places I hated yet had fond memories of. Most of my friends knew what they wanted, I didn't. A-levels pun saya tak tau apa itu lo. Bila itu Jerry fella cakap pasal SAM, foundation semua saya mau pengsan.

2. Gotten my SPM result. PTL! Tee hee. I blogged about my results before so I shall not speak(type) much of it. Hmm, loved the results yet hated it. I had nightmares often before I gotten my result. Then I wake up crying asking myself, Y U NO STUDY HARDER?! Grinned like an idiot when I got it. I cried a bit also *blush* CAUSE MY MOMMY CRIED.

3. Broke down GAZILLION, HYPERMILLION, INFINIMILLION times. Cried almost every night for more than half a year. Faith shaken due to scholarship bla bla bla. Fallen deep in love with God. Almost fallen out of love with Him. Had a "strained" relationship with God. I was really really sad this year okay xD I almost fell into depression(no joke) but I'm a tough cookie =P Drifted away with someone I was so attached to but it's okay now. I think.

4. Made friends. Great friends. Thank you people! Thank you my classmates. Thank you people who are not new in my life. Okay, this is heading to nowhere. Thank you also to people who encouraged me. I really appreciate you guys. I might not show it, but one day if you need my kidney, I'll happily donate one to you. xD

5. Entered Form 6. FAHHHH LA LA LA LA. I still hate it(sorry God). End of story.

6. Worked! Okay, I mention part of it above and this should be above but ahh, never mind. I helped Auntie Ruby to pack toiletries with Alvina. FULL liberty. Really, most of the days(everyday actually) I open the doors and gates(too many locks I tell you), work and at the end of the day lock everything again. ONLY THE TWO OF US(just the two of us, we can make it if we try~~). Switched job later on. This time, waitress/slave. Now everyone, sing Party Rock Anthem. Everyday I wash toilet. Everyday I mop the floor. Everyday I be a slave. Madness. I really dreaded going to work. But, I learned(learnt?) many lessons there. Lessons that are worth a lifetime.

7. It's 2.22 a.m. I should go to bed.

Checked my blog for my past year's resolutions. I DID NOT MAKE ANY. =O

This year had made me a baby, made me feel like a loser, made me pissed with everyone, made me realise how truly lucky I am, made me happy, reminded me, JESUS IS HERE THERE EVERYWHERE.

People make new year resolutions every year. I used to. If I were to look back and check which one I accomplished, it would be NONE.

They say it gets tougher every year. Don't expect next year to be easier than this year, what more with STPM pfft. It will be another year filled with pain, disappointment, discouragement but I know, this I truly am self-assured, that God will always be there for me. With me. Beside me. Over me. Err, across me? And THAT, makes everything more bearable and understandable.

Oh ya! I wanted to improve my English. But leh, I thinks my English gotten worser leh. My English paper always red EVELYWHERE.

And to be truthful, when I started typing this, I asked myself, OMG, WHAT HAPPENED THIS YEAR?! Either I'm old or it's been a long journey (Doesn't sound right but that's okay, no one's hurt)

THANK YOU! [yeah you beautiful/handsome one ;)]
And sorry if I was a PITA.
To the people who tried pulling me down(cause I'm above, nenenibubu), I forgive you.
To the people who caused me heartaches, I forgive you.
To the people who can NEVER be happy for me(forever jealous), I forgive you.
To the people who said false stuffs about me, I forgive you.
To the guy who stole my phone last year, well I forgave you long ago.

P/S: Back to my homework. My never-ending homework. Fun(sorta) fact: I'm starting school a day earlier. Noooooooooooo.

Drew these without looking at the paper cause I'm talented like that =P

2011-12-22T22:19:00.002+08:00

Basket Case

2011-12-19T00:19:00.002+08:00

OMgoodness.
I can't differentiate Good Charlotte and Green Day.
O.o

Shin hit the plank while I was attempting to be Jane (FAIL. How did the rest did it without injuries?!)
Swollen, blue-black, got that ugly red colour like bleeding scar thing.
And I keep hitting it on stuffs after that.
So itchy but can't scratch!
Cannot wear dress this Christmas already =/

2011-12-14T12:55:00.002+08:00

It's sunshine, rainbows and unicorns!

Click on the text! Click on the text! =D

Went to the kitchen, took the pringles out and saw this

2011-12-13T12:57:00.003+08:00

Because I'm a teenager like that.

2011-12-05T01:30:00.003+08:00

I refuse to drink water.

I eat junk food like crazy.

I can't stop eating chocolates.

I don't get enough sleep and sleep too much.

I'm hooked to the computer screen.

My best friends' are the keyboard and keypad.(Mouse too)

I love Justin Bieber! ( Okay, it's just a joke)

The more someone ask me to do something, the more reluctant I am to do it.

Nothing makes sense except unicorns.

I'm lazy, just plain lazy.

I don't care.

I feel like an old woman with my noisy cracking bones and all.

I'm a teenager.

Tell me again,

2011-12-05T00:56:00.002+08:00

How can I look at a daughter having a great relationship with her father and not feel a pang of jealousy.

How can I look at a father teaching her daughter how to drive and not feel sad.

How can I look at a father spoiling her daughter with stuffs and not feel whatever it was I was feeling.

How can I look at them going on trips and not feel like crap knowing I won't be able to no matter how hard I try.

How can I look at a daughter boasting to her father of her results and not feel, I don't even know what I should feel.

How can I look at a father supporting his daughter's education and not feel like I'm not even given an opportunity.

Why can't I be me with a father by my side.

And then I'm reminded that there's ALWAYS a Father by my side.

I just didn't give Him much of a chance.

And I'm also reminded that life goes on.

Gifts

2011-12-02T00:42:00.013+08:00

My mom always scold me saying " you ah, like to keep rubbish"

And I'll go " ah ah ah"

After million of years I still cannot bring myself to throw away these "rubbish" because, err, because I just can't. The pictures below are gifts received when I was much younger (primary/ early secondary) and certain gifts I'm sure people don't even remember giving me. (Because I treasure memories like that)

From Vyonne

Jing Shin

Alvina

Sin Ying

Matthew

Joey Ang

Woon Hua

Rasyid

Joey Lim

Arthur

Kok Sum

This is not a gift. I remember buying a bunch of identical stuffs with Joey. Some BFF thing. Heh.

These are also not gifts. My tiny toys that I love. CANNOT THROW. In my treasure box now.

Best toy on Earth! Paper dolls! Beats Barbie dolls! Every time a doll's head almost "teng sak ki" I'll emo. Seriously.

P/S: Blogger is being a PITA. -___-|||

Tetris Battle

2011-12-01T15:21:00.002+08:00

is so addictive.

Today I tried to concentrate during Physics Class and all I could ever think of is those blocks dropping down.

I can't even take a nap! The blocks are haunting me!

My head is throbbing.

All I want for Christmasssss is

2011-11-29T22:59:00.001+08:00

HAIR!

HAIR HAIR HAIR HAIR

P/S: Correction. I just want my hair to stop moving houses. ( Moving houses? My English is ah mah may zing)

I am on your side.

2011-11-25T18:44:00.004+08:00

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

2011-11-21T23:41:00.002+08:00

MOST INTENSE 3 HOURS OF MY LIFE ( Okay, CLOSE! )

Nervous, happy, proud!

SO EXCITED I CANNOT HIDE IT! =D

Malaysia's football - thumbs up! ( for now =P )

Freedom and a little peace.

2011-11-19T22:09:00.005+08:00

Those pictures are taken from tumblr. I loveeee the beach. Wanted to write why but ahh, too lazy. Anyways, I thought of printing it and pasting in my room so that whenever I'm going to bed I can look at these pictures and have my mind relaxed and I can sleep peacefully.

BUT!

1. Printers hate me. The old printer hates me, and now the new one also hates me. I don't know why. The colour is so different. And it had "lines" AGAIN. So ugly!

2. I suddenly realised, I sleep with the lights off. What's the point then. I don't even know whether to laugh at myself or just shoot myself.

"The wall"

P/S: I don't know why the words above are underlined. Don't know how to change it either.

Teeheee! =D

2011-11-15T22:33:00.002+08:00

GUESS WHO HAS MOZILLA FIREFOX NOW?!

Actually, it's not that great. At least it's better than that crappy Internet Explorer. I hope =/
And, it's still soooo slowwwww

Class dismissed.

2011-11-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I ask myself, am I "eligible" to be mad at someone, something or a certain event that happened in my life.
No matter how much I try to convince myself that I am, the answer is always no.

2011-11-09T22:19:00.004+08:00

Therefore you are inexcusable, O man, whosoever you are that judge: for in what you judge another, you condemn yourself; for you that judge do the same things.

-Romans 2:1

Ridicule - paper bullets of the brain. It will not harm you, but it will hurt you.

-Shakespeare

Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame.

-Song of Solomon 8:6

Because my hand is always itchy like that.

2011-11-07T21:50:00.005+08:00

Some of you might know that I've been wanting to cut my hair for quite some time now but I too sayang my hair ^^
But! I hate letting others to cut it because the results are always, you know =P (maybe it's because my hair lousy T.T) Too many emoticons xD
I really wanted to leave my hair the way it is but it's falling like waterfall -___-
No joke! I want to wash hair also scared.

Sooo....
I decided why not I cut myself. Not THAT difficult right ; I can handle a scissor too.
Bad bad decision. Oh well.

Maybe right then and there I knew it was a wrong choice.

Yea la, my skills teruk la.

And
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TADAA! I hated it. So "choppy"

And then my brother had to say, your fringe so ugly. Not balance.
-________-

I em kam wan ( not satisfied? ) so I decided to cut my fringe also. Btw, I cut my fringe myself. Not bad right from the pictures above =P

However, this time, I made a mad mistake.
And I turned into a lala.

Not straight fringe ftw -___-

Lalaness all the way. Sigh.

P/S: Unless you can remove your head and look at it without using a mirror, DON'T ACT SMART AND CUT YOUR OWN HAIR. But then again, how are you going to see without your eyes. Hopefully may hair does not drop that much anymore.

P/P/S: If you see me "patting" my hair. DON'T LAUGH. But now have to remember not to push fringe to the side -_-

I MUST say this. I miss my hair =P

No point trying to evade it.

2011-10-31T20:51:00.001+08:00

Never let life's hardships disturb you ...

no one can avoid problems, not even saints or sages.

Nichiren Daishonen

Once bitten, twice shy.

2011-10-30T21:06:00.002+08:00

1. There's a pimple chilling right in the middle of nose. Pain!
2. Tybalt : " People Happy Feet, you Fat Feet.
3. I just heard *doom*. The neighbour boy fell and knocked his head I think O.O
4. My homework, my homework.
5. I'm a bad person.

Houston, we got a little problem.

2011-10-29T20:41:00.003+08:00

First and foremost, I can't change my font -____-

Second, I hope my immunity system is strong enough cause that ugly-black-and-white mosquito bit me this afternoon. SO MANY TIMES. And cause I'm paranoid like that.

Third, uhhh... There's no third.

P/S: Booo! to all those hypocrite adults.

Take a bite of my heart tonight.

2011-10-27T19:22:00.003+08:00

So, I was watching this tamil movie (certain tamil movies are awesome I tell you) and I will skip what I was planning to type and the lesson is

DON'T TRUST RICH FAMOUS HANDSOME GUYS.
And yes, the ones that you don't notice? Go after them =P
I was just kidding bout the don't trust the rich handsome guys thing.

ANDDDDD, gahhhh, I'm a chicken.
Went to Sunway with the classmates and we watched Paranormal Activity 3.
Yes, I was one of them who suggested that movie.
Yes, I was eager to watch it.
Yes, I closed my eyes almost throughout the whole movie.
Yes, I'm the chicken T.T

We went on Tuesday.
And, Wednesday is Deepavali.
Oh yeah, Happy Deepavali to all indians who read this blog. ( If there was any in the beginning )
I came back home around 7/8 p.m.? Thank you Wei Boon and parents! xD
I tried staying awake because I wanted to watch Gossip Girl =P
Around 11.15 p.m. really cannot tahan so I just slept on the sofa.
*BOOM* -_______-
* boom bing bang pong piang boom badoom boom boom badoom boom he got that super bass =P*
Kena heart attack so I woke up with a pounding head and heart and angrily went to the room to sleep
THEN I REMEMBERED THE SCENE FORM PARANORMAL ACTIVITY.
With an uneasy heart I tried to sleep.
AFTER SO LONG ( 15 minutes like that ) I finally gathered enough courage to sleep.
AND THEN, 12.00 a.m.
*boom badoom boom boom badoom boom yeah that's that super bass*
-______-
So for 2 or 3 hours I was struggling to sleep because of the boom whatever boom and my nonsense imagination ( I hate you PA3! )

The next night!
SAME THING.
This time worse cause I was tired but not as tired as yesterday. Kept RUNNING out of my room cause I got scared every 5 minutes! GOSH! Every object in my room can relate to that movie!
Mom kept asking why and I gave excuses after excuses.
Then when I almost slept boom here and there again -__-
THEN my imagination caused my lack of sleep.

Praying for a good night sleep tonight. xD

And, I like walking in Taman Rakyat.
Went up and sesat there. Met nice people and left them half way through cause we thought we were pro like that and then sesat again -___-

Have a great day people! =)

P/S : MUST cut hair already. After washing I'll usually comb through using my hand and then comb. I'll be horrified with the amount of hair stucked on my fingers. And then when I look at the comb -__- HAIR, WHY MUST TREAT ME LIKE THAT

It's just my problem

2011-10-25T02:58:00.001+08:00

Dying to sleep during exam week yet I didn't had the chance to.
Now that I have I'm not appreciating it.
MUST.GO.SLEEP.NOW.

I can feel my organs punching me.

Do you know

2011-10-23T23:41:00.001+08:00

that I blog at tumblr too?

http://theolapuah.tumblr.com

Back to tumblr for now.
I sense it's a one day thing. xD

Have a great day people!

The boy.

2011-10-07T21:24:00.003+08:00

Chasing after the bubbles.

Showing me his angry bird. xD

Le bananananana

2011-10-07T21:14:00.001+08:00

I was afraid to eat it.

MUST.RUN.FASTER.NEXT.TIME!

2011-09-28T18:33:00.002+08:00

I STILL CANNOT FORGIVE THAT GUY WHO STOLE MY PHONE.
I really thought I did.
It's just that, these past weeks I've been using(?) the public bus to go back home.
AND, every time I do my heart will turn black.

I'll imagine having pepper spray and running slightly faster and pressing the nozzle and trying to avoid getting it myself by covering my face with my books, which I should have just thrown at him or left it so I could run faster and kicking him THERE when he tries to snatch my phone back and the satisfaction I'll have if somehow the books strucked his head and he faints or seeing him in pain because of the pepper spray or because of my mega kick.

Forgive me Lord.

To the girl who always spoil the picture by closing her eyes.

2011-09-26T19:40:00.002+08:00

You, my dear, have been a blessing to me.

Cause When the Sun Rays Changes Direction, it's About Time You Do Too.

2011-09-18T18:53:00.003+08:00

EVERYBODY LOOK TO THE RIGHT.
Heheh. If somehow you usually scroll down when you read my blog, you'll realise the nuffnang ad thing.
PLEASE CLICK ON IT! How many times you want also can. Thank you! ( When got advertisement only you click. Don't have then tak payah)
To those who don't know, we greedy bloggers put it to earn some cash.
You click and click then they'll pay us RM0.11. ( For me lah T.T )

I think I placed it in my blog since 2008. But after a while, tak kaut untung I told it, "belah la"
Then recently ( actually I don't know ) I placed it back again.
We'll get paid once we reach the RM 50.00 mark.
Guess my amount.
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Don't laugh!
RM 8.80 -____-
Super pathetic lo.
So help me click on it kay! Thank you =P

P/S: Why that title? I've always love looking at sun rays. You lucky only can see it okay. So this morning in the car while I was going to church I thought of that warm sun rays touching my skin ( yeah la yeah la, compulsive daydreamer ). And I realised, in school, we'll do WHATEVER it takes to avoid sunshine. Hence, the title means when the sunlight touches you, you've got to find new ways to avoid it again. Don't worry, I don't know what I'm trying to prove too. xD

I'm just a kid.

2011-09-17T19:16:00.005+08:00

Holla!
Not lying, I've got so many things in my mind but yeah, you know why.
It's Saturday. So as usual, every morning I'll attend PA tuition class.
These past weeks I've been going early to Yan Hui's house before tuition.

Reasons why I love going there:
1) So much nonsense to talk about ( So many people to talk about =P )
2) Never fail to laugh like a mad woman.
3) Stack em' domino!
( I would loveee to show you our videos but blogger hates me. Can't upload pictures also)

Reason why I'm erm not keen on going there.
1) I'LL LAUGH LIKE MAD AND GO CRAZY AND SWEAT! Then I'll be sweaty and stinky before tuition. Hee hee.

After tuition my aunt took me to the something kota hospital. Sri Kota! I think.
I didn't want to enter so I waited for her in the waiting room.
After awhile an old man (still wearing the hospital gown) came with his granddaughter.
There's a construction going on beside the hospital and we could see it through the door. Kidding. Window lah.
So they sat there staring at them and this granddaugther, a perfect example why kids can be so fascinating and annoying. She's around 5yo?

So while I was there, of course I kepo kepo listen to their conversation.
Maths time!
Let granddaughter= GD
Let old man= WK ( Cause I heard her calling him wai kong or something like that )

They were speaking in mandarin lah. So after translating it's not that adorable anymore.
Here goes.

GD: Wai kong, wai kong, they scared or not?
How are they going to come down?

WK: Slowly climb down.

GD: They scared or not?
Will they fall? ( WK did not answer so she kept asking until beh tahan already she shouted,
WAI KONG! )

WK: (Tak tau dia cakap apa)

GD: Are they good or bad people?

WK: (Still couldn't hear what he said)

GD: Everyone is good. Bad people is bad. Police captures bad people.
Why are they burning that thing?

WK: To stick it together.

GD: Will the building fall?

*She heard people talking, so she took a look and saw a bunch of nurses*

GD: Why are the doctors carrying their bag?

WK: They are going home already.

GD: Why they want to go back?

WK: Their working time is over. Other people will take over.

GD: Change to good or bad people? ( Hahah, so cute)

.........................................................................................................................

GD: Why are you here alone?
Is there anyone to accompany you?
Why got no one accompany you?

WK: You don't wanna stay here with me, so I sleep here alone lo.

GD: *silence*

Then my aunt came and I had to leave so no more kepo-ing.
Sometimes I wish I had the curiosity kids have but then that will just annoy people and I'll have a bleeding nose.
Kids are fascinating!

Why I always get cheated?!Why I always get cheated?!

2011-09-16T10:43:00.000+08:00

Digi is the worst parasite ever! And that concludes everything.

They call it love.

2011-09-02T10:14:00.002+08:00

I always had thought that indian guys are the most loyal ones.
Today I was proven wrong.
Cina, india, melayu, doesn't matter who, if they find a better one, they'll leave you.
But, why settle for second best right?
I didn't ask you to cheat ah.

P/S: I'm not dating an indian guy.

Ze blogspot is annoyingz.

2011-09-01T00:04:00.003+08:00

I want to post pictures but EVERY SINGLE TIME I DO IT, the whole thing will get stucked and ta daa, close everything and start from scratch and the whole process repeats.
Oh and it's not blogspot's fault. Heh.
Change title.
Ze Internet Explorer is annoyingz.

We're ten thousand miles apart.

2011-08-29T00:59:00.003+08:00

And I realised again that I'm a hypocrite.

2011-08-19T00:25:00.002+08:00

Everyday I pray for forgiveness and the strength to forgive.
Today I ~~finally found out~~ realised how much hatred and unforgiveness I still have within me. I seriously thought I had let it go but, sigh, I guess I haven't.
I just want to change and learn to forgive but I just kept thinking that it's their fault for agitating it.

Oh no. =/

I LOVE, WANT, NEED Food!

2011-08-07T20:28:00.002+08:00

Supposed to finish up my wayyyy too long postponed maths homework but, ahhh, I'll work it out later. I wanted to blog about this LAST time but couldn't care less. Don't worry, I never truly understood what I wanted either.

List of items I loveee.

P/S: I clicked on add image but it didn't "open" -____-
Next time lah then! xD

And they say sanity is necessary.

2011-07-31T16:53:00.005+08:00

If there's one thing I would never want to let go off,
it would be You, oh Lord.
Help keep me sane.
Help me to hold on to You.
Help me to remember my promises,
my always unkept promises.

You are excused from reading this messy post.

2011-07-30T07:24:00.004+08:00

It's 7.24 a.m. now. Just woke up from sleep. Still feeling drowsy but I must blog now! Because like they said, you easily forget your dreams.

Here goes my dream.

We ( the whole church/ r.rangers? ) went for a camp. It's like a resort, with the sea/lake/river just below the balcony ( I really don't know how to describe )
They were playing a game in the water and someone asked me to join. At first I said no, but in the end I decided why not and went to change to my swimming suit^^
On the way there I was accompanied by my mom. A few event happened before I reached the toilet but I can't remember.

So I reached the toilet. Buttt, before that I was already wearing one. -__- So I went to the toilet to put on another one! I wanted to check how I looked and ta daa, I went to my room ( my REAL, house's room ) to look. See, dreams are like that. From a resort to your own room.

Okay, these scene, I don't know it's between which, but yeah. xD
Alvina was driving back home from somewhere far at full speed! Aahh, never mind too complicated.

So after changing, I walked with my mom back to that place. Of course, since it is a dream, we passed through beautiful gardens and met my other family members who were enjoying the view. Walk to the toilet so fast lo, walk back there so long. -__- Oh, and toilet! Supposed to be bathroom. Heh.

Then suddenly, my mom switched to Alvina. I didn't realise that obviously. So we continue walking. You know that place in Genting where there's so many escalators and you just keep going up or down? Yeah, the path to there was like that. The whole group then turned into my schoolmates and I clearly remember some of them but I will not name them. *They-who-shall-not-be-named*

Anyway, while climbing the stairs ( and pushing rubbishes into secret passages and going through it -__- ) there's a group of students from my school that chanted something to protest about something. I remember thinking it was stupid because at that time I remembered what they said lah xD I was also pouring smarties along the way! Don't know why I was doing that but yeah.

Suddenly, we heard a commotion. By that time the crowd transformed into strangers and Alvina appeared back beside me. We were in Sunway Pyramid! I thinkkk. But a very talll Sunway Pyramid. Really, it's like a hotel's height but hugeee also. Sooo many escalators! ( There, the Genting one I told you )

So when we heard the commotion we started running to the escalators and trying to climb as high as we can. After almost reaching the top, the building suddenly started to shake ( I think by that time I knew that a flood was happening or something) So of course, when the building shakes what do you do? Run back all the way down again of course. ( If you knew the way I climb staircases and saw me in my dreams, you would be proud xD )

I remember Alvina and I was on the second floor because I pointed the "2" at her but of course it's just a dream and we were able to see the outside of the building which is supposed to be on the ground floor. We saw sexy people in swimming suits/ trunks beside the beach and SPLASH. The size of the splash was as if a sumo jumped into the pool.

At that time I remember thinking, this is it, tsunami, end of the world. So of course, the two of us healthy, fit athletes in my dreams started running up the escalators all the way again. The whole building was divided into two. There was a higher set of escalators. ( too lazy too describe )

Water was already rushing in and I think at one moment of time it was the on the same floor as us. But we continued our athletes' journey =P We were on the highest floor then, standing the highest bar with a few people beside. I think my mom was beside us too -__-

We were swaying here and there, close to falling until I moved and gripped something else and we were stable ( hua hua, I'm a heroine =P)

I remember standing on that bar thinking, God is here to finally judge us. Everyone started praying and asking for forgiveness. I wanted to but I thought, nahh it's too late. I've sinned too much and asking for forgiveness now is just, too late. Bahhh. Then there was this moment of silence. That moment of just waiting as that high raised water calmed down and we all just don't exactly know what to do. Then two girls suddenly fell into the water. It's like corpses falling down. They dropped and just floated there -__-

ANDDD, a couple of guys in uniforms started dragging a few person down from safety dragged them and threw them down. Including that 2 corpses. After I woke up I suddenly realised, how did they walk on the water?!

I wonder if it really happened will I still remain like my calm self in my dream? (Except the running to safety part)
I woke up wondering why I did not think, "I can finally meet Him"
I honestly was frightened and I said, no more backsliding!
Wake up call for me, maybe?

P/S: MUST FASTER FINISH MY TUITION HOMEWORK, FINISH UP SOME STUFFS, AND STUDY FOR MY TEST. T.T

Good day people!

Now I'm feeling so flyyy

2011-07-25T14:16:00.002+08:00

Like A

The Sad Life of A Rusty Lock.

2011-07-20T17:36:00.002+08:00

This lock had served it's purpose faithfully for 160 years. (I don't know how long lah okay. It just looks like it's 160 years old)

One fine day, something tragic happened to it.

It all started when a little oh-so-cute girl went to bathe, in the bathroom of course. (I tend to use the word toilet a lot. Go toilet bathe lah!)

That's not the point.

Soooo, she bathe lo.

After cleaning herself thoroughly by force, she walked to the room clad in a pink towel. (Not pink, not pink)

Of course, being a very smart and determined girl, she always locks the almost-out-of-her-reach lock whenever she enters.

Done changing, the girl decided to lie on the bed.

Sleeping after cleaning yourself. Amazing, no?

That little oh-so-cute girl always put her towel back, which means unlocking that too-high-for-her lock.

But on that fateful day, she decided to rest before putting her towel back.

The next morning, she woke up with two very pissed off parents.

According to them, the girl fell asleep and didn't wake up.

The parents knocked on the door like mad, shouted her name, went to the window and knocked it tapi dia tak bangun bangun juga.

Dead sleeper. xD

So they broke in ( England karat, tak tau nak guna perkataan apa -__-) thinking she fainted or something.

So there goes the life of the pityful lock.

P/S: I know I sleep walk (don't laugh)but I didn't realise I was THAT difficult to awaken. Oh well. Thank God I didn't kena scolding the next day. Hee hee.

Who do you think you are, running round leaving scars.

2011-07-15T22:41:00.003+08:00

It's weird how I planned for so many things but didn't execute it thinking I would be leaving soon. Only till last 2 weeks or so I gave up on that teeny weeny little tiny whatever small kecil micro hope of leaving. I really want to leave. No joke. Wait, it's not even a joke -___-

Today I suddenly remembered all those small details I wanted to change in my room and thought why not change it now since I'm not gonna leave soon. But nahh, too lazy. xD And I think that bad aura is coming back to me. Actually, I think I'm inviting it in. I think I'm starting to be violent again. Thoughts only laaa. I think.

Speaking of thinking. I.CAN'T.THINK. Really. I hate studying. I hate anything that involves thinking. These days I dedicated my life to sleeping. ( I know using the word dedicated is kind of offensive in a way, but please forgive me ) I come back from school. Do my stuffs for about an hour. Then sleep till it's 8 p.m. Then watch tv! And do the other stuffs. Watch watch watch. Use the computer. Then back to sleeping. I'll start touching my homework. I just don't know when, yet.

Andddd, physics is driving me nuts. -___- I just want to choke myself when I think about it. Sigh.

I would cut my hair real short, if I had the look.

2011-07-09T23:00:00.009+08:00

So tempted to cut my hair that way again. One side short, another side long. And yes, the first picture, my hair was that way. That side is the long side, so the other side looked retarded. -__- Hair too short that time. And no, I can never get back my "old" short hair. The ones during form 2. NOW HAIR TOO LITTLE T.T

Okay, that's it! Oh ya, I'm starting to REALLY hate school again. Due to 1000000 million reasons. Just kidding. I just hate staying back and going for tuitions and worrying bout $$ and transport. I need to go tuition kay! Lord, give me a car please. Thank you.

P/S: Paiseh, my england karat already.

P/P/S: All the templates so ugly! Want to find nice ones but I don't want the anti-virus screaming at me again. So, I'll keep changing my template. Happy-sight-seeing! xD

Incubus.

2011-07-08T22:44:00.002+08:00

Sometimes when I'm alone, I wonder

Is there a spell that I am under

Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Sigh, someone, buy me the ticket please.

I'm starting to wonder if I'm making the right choice. Maybe engineering is just not for me. Maybe all these studious subjects will never make me, ME. But, maybe it is. I might not be able to see it now, I just have to work hard bla bla bla. I was just kidding. It's really not me. I suck at Physics. Pffft. Maybe I'm suited to be a housewife. But then again, where to find a rich and handsome guy who'll somehow knock his head and marry me right?

This Morning.

2011-07-02T22:15:00.002+08:00

So we had the Larian 1Malaysia thing, bla bla bla.

I think Yan Hui and I were the last 2 from morning session.

We took 45 minutes to reach. Hee hee.

Went to Jusco after that with her and Alvina.

That's not my main story.

So while I was walking towards school from Simpang 5, there were a group of boys around me.

One of them threw his friend's bag to him hoping he would catch it but he didn't.

Guy A: Ini pun tak tau apasal you hidup?! You makan nasi ke mee goreng?!

Guy B: Mee goreng

Guy C: Nasi goreng!

Okay lah, not hilarious lah, don't need to laugh lah.

The Indian Restaurant With the Best Mutton. Everrr!

2011-07-01T21:36:00.003+08:00

The one thing I look forward to everytime I dine in there.

Oh, and the mutton of course =)

P/S: I sent this picture to The Star last year, but no, they didn't like it I guess.

Insert you own title here

2011-06-28T19:32:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, about 10 pm I received a missed call from an unknown number.
I messaged that number saying:
Hey, you called?
That unknown person replied:
I hafe sleep.

So I didn't bother already la.
Then about 1 am that number called again. So much for the I 'hafe' sleep.
I answered and some WEIRDDD, PSYCHOTIC, FREAK man started saying words.
Couldn't really hear what he said but there were other guys in the background telling him what to say. AND THEY ALL STARTED LAUGHING.

Well, of course, I'm a chicken, so I freaked out. Midnight, when everyone's asleep and you get this kind of phone calls you won't meh? ( Btw, I stayed up to do Chemistry homework + watch tv, although I think I did the latter more)

I hung up ( hung up right?) and then that unknown creature sent me a text.
It says:
A
I got even more afraid becauseeeee, I just watched Pretty Little Liars a couple of hours ago.
Why is it related?
The show is about four best friends who are stalked and receive text messages form their stalker. The stalker usually ends the message with -A

So whoever you are, please stop disturbing me.
I've got a weak heart.
Thank you and byebye!

Sway with me.

2011-06-18T14:06:00.002+08:00

This is captain Theola speaking.

Heh. No, not heh. Pffft, my computer died.

I'll just post a shortttt post.

I'm doing fine. Really, just fine.

Still confused but I think I'll cope up with the rest of the world.

Anddd, can you people start blogging?! I mean, start updating your blog.

Very sien you know, no posts to read.

Okay, byebye! =D

Homework? What homework?

2011-06-07T16:58:00.002+08:00

Taiwanese dramas are super addictive.
No wait, make that dramas involving Show Luo. Heh.
I spent 5 hours today watching Hi My Sweetheart.
I actually started watching it last year, stopped half way, then continued then stopped again.
Blame Youtube lahhh! Every time got that copyright thing. Tskk.

P/S: Have I told you how much I loathe doing homework? Pfftt...

The Awards. Hee hee.

2011-06-06T01:05:00.004+08:00

Because I'm too free like that.

Before I start, I viewed all the all comments posted on blog. Mostly spams, but there's this guy who gave me HELP for spelling. Oh, funny guy.

THE BEST-EST FRIENDS EVERRRR

- Yan Hui

- Jing Shin

( Both are also my most supportive friends. Their gestures never fail to touch my heart. I wanted to dedicate a REALLL long post for Yan Hui, just not now )

Okay lahh, actually can put in a few more. And I mean it okayy. But then it'll be weird, so let's move on!

MOST GENEROUS FRIEND ( In many ways, not $$ )

- Vyonne Ann ( Also the best person to have fun with, bully, "discuss" bout others )

- Xiao Shuang

PRETTY PRETTY PEOPLE

- Joey Ang

- Rou Zyn

- Xiao Shuang

- Steffi

Okayy, must stop. I will end up typing everyone's name. xD

MY COMPLAIN BUDDIES

- Rome!

- Summy Yummy!

THE ULTIMATE ROLE MODEL

- T.H.E.O.L.A! ( Okay lah, I'm still thinking of another title. Be patient with me)

D' MAN!

- Jo Dee

MOST TALKATIVE

- Alvina

Ilazyalreadybye.

P/S: How come got no colour?! I so susah make it so colourful but came out black and white. -__-|||

My Pre-U life.

2011-06-04T09:10:00.002+08:00

Nooooooooooooooooooooo.

I didn't get matriks.

JPA appeal, sigh, don't wanna talk bout it.

Too late to apply for scholarships through colleges.

Too much of a hassle to apply for loan.

So what can I do now?

Pia Form 6 lo.

Of brothers and burgers

2011-06-02T20:36:00.003+08:00

Few days ago my brother bought a box of chewing gum ( he's addicted to chewing it ).

A tiny box of chewing gum that costs RM 3.60. Madness I tell you. I suspect they are charging that much for the black box and gold wrapper cause the chewing gum didn't taste like heaven and it got tasteless and SO rubber-ish after 20 seconds ( No kidding. I mean, REALLY)

So why am I wasting my time typing about this useless-cheat-people's-money-kao-kao-chewing gum? My brother actually bought it for Pow Wow camp (I wanted to go lah, but no teman. All old liao =P) I asked him for ONE, he said NO. Yes, very kind of him.

So one fine day before he left for camp, he tried do business with me.

Tybalt: *Opened my room door and peeked in* Jie, I give you one great deal.

Me: *In my room, enjoying music. Removed one side of my earphones* What?

Tybalt: I give you one chewing gum, you give me your burger.

Mind you, that burger was my dinner and he already ate one.

So there you go, my loving brother who cares for my desire to eat that ridiculously priced chewing gum.

Have a great day people! And may your life be filled with awesome brothers like mine.

Cannot T.H.I.N.K

2011-06-02T09:21:00.005+08:00

So, this whole "study where?" thing is killing me.

They say it's slowly killing me.

NO! Very fast. -__-|||

I REALLY don't know what to do.

God, please let me be among the 500!

Actually I posted this because I don't want the pictures below to be blocked. Heee.

So there, byebye!

P/S: And then when I checked it's still blocked! ARGH. I know, can switch the pictures' positions. But I don't want. I type longer. Wait, I go toilet think first =P

Sooo, all I can think about is, nothing. Hopefully by the time I finish typing this the picture is not blocked anymore. Wait! Last sentence, I miss my ugly header =(

P/P/S: Still blocked le!! ( Hence, the space after each sentences )

Places / Events

2011-06-02T08:56:00.003+08:00

Class Gathering @ Sunway Pyramid

Matthew's Surprise @ Fish Market xD

Joey's Belated Birthday @ I-city

Xiao Shuang's House Warming @ her house of course.

( But this picture is taken at somewhere else )

Made a wrong turn, once or twice.

2011-05-29T20:33:00.002+08:00

Am I willing to work my ass off and be the best nerd and most active kid bla bla bla in Form 6? No, of course not. But I feel the need to. If "both" plans fail, I would not bother to try anymore. Maybe God wants me to stay there and start being responsible. Maybe that's the way He wants to prepare me.

Have a great time in Form 6 people!

BE.A.NERD!

The Birthday Wish(es)

2011-05-17T14:01:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Mei Xin!
- The quiet( to me la) girl with I believe, excessive thoughts that cannot be expressed. I don't know what I'm saying lah. xD

Marlene!
- Sexy, horny, meat eater =P

Marc!
-Tall tweety bird with the cutest laugh ever!

ANDDD!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LILY LEE DEE DEE!
-I remember saying I'll do it for your birthday, but that time I didn't even bother to blog. So there you go my friend =D

P/S: Going to register for Form 6 tomorrow and settle my appeal thing for JPA. Pleaseeee, pray for me and the rest. And no, I don't want to get stucked in Form 6 for long. God said the more you don't want something, the more it'll be given to you. I REALLY DON'T WANT LA. T.T

Pa to tia.

2011-05-16T22:19:00.001+08:00

Me iz emoz.
Please remindz me notz postz emoz stuffz when zee is emoz.
Thankzz!

How do I choose between my head and heart?

2011-05-10T20:44:00.004+08:00

I feel like talking about politics today.
Before you start making this face, -____-|| and accusing me of whatever, no I don't know anything about it. IMHO, I think it's sort of becoming a joke. It's interesting but stupid at the same time.
I was really afraid if the JPA interviewers were gonna ask stuffs about it. Cause I really have no clue, except for the sex scandal thing.

And weather really hot. Can die.

And! I want this bracelet. So pretty. T.T
Forgot I stole it from which website already =P

Jeng Jeng Jeng

2011-05-09T08:55:00.005+08:00

So yes, JPA results. Today. 5 p.m.
My brother said they will delay the time. Cause they did, few times, during his year.
Hopefully it comes out today, 5 p.m.
It better come out TODAY, 5 p.m.
5 pee amm.

Am I making you proud?
Can you even see this?
Wait for me. I'll be there to join you soon.
Meanwhile, I'll just work my ass off and be happy, not rich.
Cause I'm planning to marry a rich AND handsome guy.
Hee ^^

P/S: Wanted to change the layout/background/template (I will never know the difference) but then the stupid avast started screaming said trojan found! Trojan found! Got scared. Wanted to scan and delete whatever virus, but don't know how. They said click on abort connection, I kept clicking it kept screaming ( Not scream lah, those annoying-scare-you-till-you-pee siren) Also, I deleted my chatbox. Too much spam. Wanted to login and delete them but can't remember the username. -__-|| So there goes.

P/P/S: Edit don't know how many times liao.

Choke me please.

2011-05-08T00:02:00.003+08:00

Wanted to decorate the inside of the card I made for my mom just now.
So I carefully closed the door.
Quietly open the store room door and praying she won't wake up while pulling out the colour papers.
And, ta daa, she suddenly open the door and asked me why I closed it. -__-||

And, she started saying "so cool man" after watching I Not Stupid Too yesterday.

Oh, to all my Biru classmates,
Don't know whether any of you read my blog but remember that time during standard 5 when Pn. Susila caned us and asked us to raise our hands till we almost wished we didn't have arms?
I was the cause.
SORRY! =P
But good experience right?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

Alma Mater

2011-05-06T12:31:00.003+08:00

And so JPA decided to have the last laugh by announcing the results on the 9th. Good job people. Really. My I-want-to-go-cuckoo-liao-meter is increasing. It increased lah, then it didn't exist anymore. Heheh. I asked God, "why can't You just make it easier for me?" And hor, usually when I ask God a question there will always be an answer. Like a voice in my head. But I guess it's just what I thought was the answer at that time lah. This time I heard "if it's so easy, You wouldn't count on me anymore."

I will not be going to Form 6. Yes, I said before, die also don't want to go. Then couple of months back it became my back up plan IN CASE I didn't get anything. THEN, I didn't bother to think about Form 6, trusting the Lord with all that I can. At that time it was easy to say, "yeah Lord, I trust You, I will get it." At that period of time when my faith was pretty strong, it had to do with several reasons. First it was because of my results. I got EXACTLY what I prayed for few days after I finished the papers. Second, my driving. No explanation needed. =P Third, many of you might have know that I wanted an iPod so badly at that time. I prayed, and my grandaunt wanted to buy it as a gift for me and my cousin. No, I didn't bother to get it in the end.

I was so happy, contented, positive, glad and whatever good and encouraging words you can think of at that time. I was like, "God will provide, God will take care" till the extend I wanted to share on faith a few weeks ago during 300 seconds, but I believed God put it on pause. Cause if I did, I don't think it's complete. I trusted the Lord so much to the extend I didn't even bother to check which school I got for Form 6.

Then everything just changed when THAT CUNNING JPA PEOPLE CHANGED THE DATE. (No lah, no drama) I became a chicken again. That was yesterday night btw. In the end, I checked which school I got. STAR, Y U NO LEAVE ME ALONE?! T.T Everyone told me to just register on Monday. I was really frustrated. I didn't WANT to register but my brain somehow told me I NEED to do it. I didn't want to at first because it's like telling God, I don't trust You, enough. Then that night I thought bout the 300 seconds thing and I almost wanted to choke myself. So much for wanting to share on faith. Before I slept, I prayed again.

This morning my mom told me that she told my aunt bout registering for Form 6. She said she kena cho =P She said, no confident meh? That was when I felt like I got slapped. My mind went siao again. That was when I asked God bout the why not make it easier for me question. Beh tahan, weather so hot I went to bathe. You know how people say a lot of us make a life changing decision in the bathroom, something like that? Yes, then I decided to yes, trust the Lord. I told God, wait till I bath and dry my hair then I'll talk to You.

When I was done bathing, a line just popped into my head (I don't know the right way to say it lah) "When I am with You, who shall be against You" Sounds so familiar, I know. So the final decision is, I'm not going to register for Form 6! Amen! =D

A "conversation" I had with my mom while typing this.

*phone rings*
Mom: Who is that? ( These few days she kept asking me -__-||)
Me: *SLIGHTLY pissed* Why you keep on ask?
Mom: I just want to know ma.
Me: My boyfriend lah, happy?
Mom: Ask only lah, so fierce for what. Oh, boyfriend ah, God bess!

-_____-||| Sweat to the infinity.

Have a great day people! With lots of ♥ from God. Hee hee.

P/S: I ALWAYS type from as form. ALWAYS have to retype. Tsk.

I wanna ask you to dance right now, in the middle of the parking lot.

2011-05-04T14:03:00.003+08:00

My left eye's vision is slighty blur.
Is it normal?

P/S: 40 minutes later, I found out why. My computer screen was reflecting the light from outside.
HAHAH. -____-|||

There's no greater love than this.

2011-05-02T03:20:00.003+08:00

I lost my interest coming here everyday to spam.
I've got lots of stuffs to write but my fingers gained a lot of weight lately and can't move around much.

*crick... crick.. crick... mooo.. woof!*

Can't think of anything else to say. -_-|||

Money, please fly to me. Or fall on me. Or whichever way you prefer.
As long as you come to me.

Oh ya, I'm materialistic. *sinister smile*

Okay, you can start playing Gwen Stefani's Rich Girl and Luxurious.

Maybe all I need is some help.

2011-04-22T01:55:00.002+08:00

I tried going to bed early yesterday since going to bed late doesn't help.
Went to bed at 12 a.m., rolled here rolled there, then looked at the clock it's 4 something.
-______-|||.

The Star Education Fund 'people' called me.
Got the scholarship! =D But I declined. See, sometimes a scholarship is never enough.
ALSO! Please continue praying for my JPA scholarship.
I'm assuming you guys ARE praying for me. If you don't I'll haunt your dreams and knock your head.

I'm trying to find for a niceee layout, but I damn cerewet, sure got one part I don't like.
ANDDD, I'm also trying to change the way I type. I somehow always type short short posts and separate the paragraphs unaccordingly. So, I've been trying to type loooonger posts and try to fill out the paragraphs and make it juicier, fatter, whatever synonym, but no hope. =P

Lastly, it's proven. I'm not cinak.

I need my earphones.

2011-04-20T23:27:00.002+08:00

You're so hypnotizing.
Could you be the devil?
Could you be an angel?

Leave my hairstylist dream alone. CHECK.

2011-04-19T22:57:00.005+08:00

My fringe is out of shape already.
Usually when I cut my hair, my fringe would be in a ridiculous state.
ALWAYS actually. But somehow it'll grow into a length I adore and then it'll be too long and messy.
-___-|||.
So this time, I thought why not cut it myself since the outcome is always ugly and I could save some money.
Okay lah, kidding lah. My hands itchy kay.

So I cut lo.

Disasters after disasters later, I had to cut it straight.

Yes la, laugh la laugh la.

Bro: Yer, you look like kuai lo. Worse than lala ( ouch)
Mom: Siao po, siao lang.

Okay, you can stop laughing now.

Say hello, to messy ugly fringe days.

P/S: Actually hor, from the picture it doesn't look that bad right. =P

So tell me Theola, why didn't you release that crap during JPA?

2011-04-18T22:29:00.003+08:00

Today's interview was not bad. Don't think I'll be getting it though due to erm personal reasons. But the people were nice. I understand if they didn't offer me that scholarship. I can't accept it anyways. Why didn't do as well during JPA, I don't know. Someone, slap me please.

Oh and ya!

While doing 'research' yesterday, this creature came and visited me. Thank God it didn't eat me =P

To those who said I can't even kill a mosquito, hee hee! I didn't want to kill it but it didn't get that I hate visitors. If I say I felt great after killing it am I cruel?

Yes, procrastination brought me here. No, I still don't know what an interior architecture does.

2011-04-18T01:10:00.002+08:00

2 Years Ago.

Six Things I'm Passionate About:
1)God
2)Art
3)Music
4)Food
5)Reading(Comic books and story books only lah)
6)Does sleeping counts?

Six Things I Say Too Often:
1)Oh B****
2)OMG!
3)Die lah!! Die lah!!
4)OMG, Poh Mun, you did *insert teacher's name here*'s homework??!
5)Stupid
6)HAHAHAHAHA!

Six Books I've read(Recently):
1)P.S I love you( Stupid Vimalan )
2)HOMECOMING
3)The Heir
4)Beauty and the beast
5)Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde
6)oh! History text book! haha!

Six Songs I Can Listen To Again and Again:
1)Helpless when she smiles by backstreet boys
2)Pocketful of sunshine by Natasha Bedingfield
3)Sweetest girl( acoustic version ) by Wyclef Jean and Nia( ryte?)
4)Innocence by Avril Lavigne
5) Your love is a lie by Simple Plan
6)The way I are by Timbaland and I dont know who.

Six Things I Learnt In The Past Year:
1)YOU MUST EAT TO SURVIVE
2)Trust nobody except yourself
3)All guys are perverts after all.HAHA
4)Dont let little things crush you
5)If someone pushes you down, get up and kiss the person and punch him on the face. kidding
6)OH! Friends are really important. =D haha!!

2011.

Six Things I'm Passionate About:
1)God
2)Music
3) Sleeping
4)Eating
5)Reading
6)Going oversea! =P

(Ya lah, nonsense lah)

Six Things I Say Too Often:
1)Yorr.
2)What?
3)Mummy
4)Go away (heh)
5)Ha?!
6)HAHAHAHAHA!

Six Books I've read(Recently):
1)Spring Fling
2)Cut
3)Suite Scarlett
4)So Totally Emily Ebers
5)Where Rainbows End.
6)My brother's literature book. ( Awesome I tell you. Why always like that? Leave only wanna change. Tsk)

Six Songs I Can Listen To Again and Again:
1)Perfect - Pink AND Simple Plan
2)Raise Your Glass! - Pink
3)Like A G6 (=P)
4)Over The Rainbow - Glee Cast
5) Only Girl - Rihanna
6) All About Him - Auburn

Okay lah, I like them now. Next time I don't know. Just too lazy to think about it.

Six Things I Learnt In The Past Year:
1)God is in control.
2)Trust nobody except yourself
3)All guys are perverts after all.HAHA
4)Dont let little things crush you
5)If someone pushes you down, get up and kiss the person and punch him on the face. ( No, now not kidding)
6)Never fall in love with a charming sweet talker guy. Rich AND handsome can. =D

See, I didn't change much. I'm still me. =)

F.R.U.S.T.R.A.T.I.O.N.

2011-04-17T23:53:00.002+08:00

And so I will not care anymore!

Hmmph!

The Art of Ignorance.

2011-04-17T19:26:00.002+08:00

I'll be going for my second interview tomorrow. I'm hesitating whether I should tell them that this is not really what I wanted and whther I can change it. Seriously, if they ask me why am I interested in Interior Architecture, I'll most propably babble the duty of one WHICH I'll soon find out from the internet. I didn't want to go at first, don't feel like now either but apart from everyone forcing me, I actually remembered asking God for this opportunity. So yeah Theola, GO FOR IT! =P

And I want to go out laaaa. =(

P/S: Hopefully, I don't get a nosy scholarship erm group who looks through people's Facebook and blog. Cause if they do, I can kiss my scholarship goodbye.

We have changed but we're still the same.

2011-04-16T23:44:00.003+08:00

So my aunt called them today because Alvina and I haven't gotten our pay.
Which we should have gotten, one month ago?
3 fingers being the all everyone-owes-me-something attitude behave, well, like how she was born to be.
Sorry if it spoiled your mood but,

I WANT MY PAY LA, WOMAN!

P/S: They always say "forgot your password?". That is an almighty help. What if I forgot my login name? =/

Nothing's alright.

2011-04-16T02:48:00.001+08:00

It's okay, Theola.
Don't cry.
Don't ever cry.

After all that we've been through, I know we're cool.

2011-04-15T03:10:00.002+08:00

I'm such a whiny teenager.
2 more years, 2 more happy-go-lucky years of being a teenager.
Today, I will not be whiny.
I just want to complain. =P

1. I haven't gotten my pay
2. I did badly in my interview
3. My mom is scolding me 24/7. STRESS.
4. I forgot how to paint. My skills, if it ever existed, are long gone.
5. I miss going to art class and release my tension and worries by splashing colours all over ( Not a complain, I know)

Well, I ought to be able to give thanks right?
Jesus, I thank You for

1. Helping me to stay alive and be stronger every time I think I can't make.
2. Helping me through my driving. EVERY SINGLE part of it.
3. Giving me a temporary job that showed me how truly lucky I am.
4. BLESSING me with results that sometimes I think I don't even deserve it.
5. Giving me the opportunity to go for interviews and being there beside me.
6. Giving me good friends in my life who supported me endlessly. Thank you Poh Mun, David, Chee Wei, Krishen, Yan Hui and especially Jing Shin who ALWAYS believed in me although I feel I could never succeed at that moment. You make me feel like superwoman at times =)

Well, my plan now is to wait till the end of April and see whether I get the JPA scholarship or not. I know I screwed it up, but PLEASE PRAY FOR ME. Thank you. If I don't, there might be matriks. Or I'll just go form 6. Although I say it as if I don't mind going there if I don't gett he scholarship, I REALLY do not want to. Can you imagine the Theola you knew going to form 6? Biggest joke ever.

Hmm, what else.

Oh yea, ever since I stopped working I've been sleeping late again. It's not that I don't want to. I just can't.

AHHHHHHHH. THERE'S A COCKROACH UNDER MY CHAIR.

Peace ^^V It's gone.

I'm prone to injuries. It's actually a severe case. =P

Okay, I'm starting to crap already.
This is Miss Puah signing off/out ( -___-|||).

♥

Do you believe?

2011-03-27T01:29:00.001+08:00

Deleted the previous post because God has been too kind to me and I'm not doing justice to His name.

On the other hand, I witness an accident today.

Humans are so fragile.

Scary.

The Work.

2011-03-19T19:34:00.003+08:00

I miss work.
I miss sweating like a pig and stink like a *insert whatever you want*.
I miss sweeping REAL fast and flinging stones and dust and all sorts of rubbish towards all the expensive cars. Oh the joy.
I miss carrying the tables with Alvina and arranging all the chairs and tables when we're only two young kids with very little strength.
I miss mopping the floor with the smelly water and spraying the Ambi Pur like mad afterward.
I miss washing the toilet and having to worry whether I'll fall or not. Oh the joy when I really slipped and fell. -___-|||.
I miss being "burned" by the boiling water when I pour the last rinse.
I miss wiping the tables which will collect dusts 0.001 seconds later.
I miss refilling the tissue box till it's so jam packed that the people there have to tell me to put lesser. But I don't care, I happy can already.
I miss filling the ashtrays with water.
I miss wiping the tissue box with Alvina.
I miss swiping my card and abusing the machine whenever I key in the orders.
I miss running to the bar or kitchen whenever it *tings*.
I miss ticking the food that we've already taken.
I miss "killing" the paper.
I miss eating with the people there and how they say we eat so little when we actually go back and stuff ourselves like pigs.
I sort of miss being bullied by those rich chinese uncles who always tease me for being a banana.
I sort of miss being called a foreigner.
I sort of miss people speaking to me in a foreign language and the look on their face when they say, "oh kamu bukan dari myanmar? o.O" Bukan, saya dari Munch Cafe. -___-|||.
I miss taking the receipt and running towards the counter while shouting "Chit OO" or " K K"and saying adudube.
I miss carrying all the plates and clean all the oh-so-wonderful-leftovers the customers decided to spit on the table. Really, why did you think we gave you the extra bowl for?
I miss forgetting to do certain things and being question by the supervisor and that oh-my-gosh-I'm-so-dead moment.
I miss wiping the glass door everyday and get mad tired and then get pissed.
I miss being asked which dish is nice and when I said everything ( supervisor asked me to), I get yelled bullshit at. Great feeling.
I miss looking at the clock and waiting for it to reach 7.30 p.m. ( Till today I believe they made the clock move slower from 6.45 to 7.30 p.m.
I miss going for night shifts on Sunday because there's really no customers and we all get to bond. ^^
I miss getting a little of the drinks that the bartender made. ( We had to hide under to drink, how pathetic -____-|||)
I miss the "kuai los" who comes everyday.
I miss inhaling the smoke from those really not smart people who smokes 24/7.
I miss the oh crap feeling when the supervisor, boss 1, boss 2, lao pan niang and boss' family comes.
I miss talking behind the workers back with Alvina. ( Hey! We were stressed up okay!)

I miss 3 fingers, Prawn, 2+1 , The Fat Shark, Leng Zai, Koko Banana, Panjang, and John.

I give up. Really.

2011-02-11T00:10:00.003+08:00

Most of the adults I'm "close" with tell me that I should only get involved in a relationship after I started working.
I told myself last year that I will not get involved in one until I start earning some $$.
Well, I started working.
Pack stuffs, gonna change job soon, HOPEFULLY, but considered working.
SO NOW CAN HAVE BOYFRIEND LA? =D

I don't care. Enter college IF got a rich and handsome boy wants me I straight grab! =P

...........................

Went to aeon to look for another job cause I can't stand the current one. Lavender's boss kia lang T.T I don't want to go for the interview! But the pay is good. But if she scolds me then how?! Haiyooo. Why all don't wanna hire spm leavers? Cis.

You'll be the king and I'll be your clown.

2011-02-09T18:01:00.003+08:00

1. I'm healthy.
2. Not really, I've been sucking too much of dust.
3. I've been working. Thus, the dust sucking.
4. The towels in my work place banyak dust! Thus, me removing the dust. And thus, me sucking the dust.
5. I have to sweep the dust away. SIEN.

6. My chinese new year was not bad.
7. Really it wasn't that bad. I got to sleep almost half of the day.
8. Oh, I got to eat ice cream too.
9. And be lifeless and stalk people's facebook profile.
10. Oh, went genting on the second day. Have I told you how packed that place was and how uncivilized certain people can be? Go eat chapati.

11. Lets talk about facebook.
12. First, you saw my facebook then you saw lor. Must tell my family about it is it?
13. And, you how old already?! Still wanna be lifeless and stalk?! Go cook healthy food for your kids.
14. Because you stalk, I'm embarrassed to put be hiao pai seh pictures of myself. Congratulations, you won.
15. Very long didn't play Mall World already.

Maybe dreams do come true. Wait, make that nightmares.

2011-01-11T00:09:00.004+08:00

Left 2 pathetic ones only.

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag?

2010-12-29T20:45:00.001+08:00

Why you so fierce, stare at me until like that?!
He's not mine also. T.T

*does the imaginary karate moves*

P/S: Annoying people, please just stop being annoying. -____-|||

My dreams in my dream.

2010-12-27T19:42:00.003+08:00

Hari ini, Theola Puah telah err dengan bodohnya pergi ke Crystal Crown untuk dengar cakap.
HAHAHA. Darn, fail. xD

So yeah, went to Crystal Crown for some talk thing.
And the conclusion is, they only care for your money =)
Not that CARE, just care.
Oh well, like they said, no money no talk.
Dream shattered before it even started.
Friend told me not to give up.
But really, maybe it's a sign. Since even a roller coaster ride made me vomit 3 times and still feel dizzy after a day.

I can't find my identity.
I don't know my talent. Not even sure if I have one.
I don't know what I really like.
Iiiiiiiii....
I DON'T KNOW LAH.

Nowadays I very rajin. Got title. Heh.

2010-12-12T21:37:00.008+08:00

Was looking through the pictures I took with my friends on the last day of school.
Last day, sort of.
It stirs great memories.

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry~
It's innocence it's brilliant ~

HAHAHAHAAH. Don't mind me. Almost every word triggers my 'sing-that-song' part of brain.

But really, I'm sad.
We often express how much we hate school and how happy we are leaving it.
REALLY? You wanna leave?
I DON'T WANT LOR!
People like me will die the moment we face the outside world.
If you would have asked, no, I don't think I learn much from school.
Skip so much how to learn? xD
But it's the assurance of knowing you'll face the same routine, the same one you're used to and comfortable with that makes you take everything for granted.

Aaaahhhh.

And hor, I really don't know what to do after this.
Get a job? Find my dream career? Learn to drive?

Oh ya! Parking mania ftw! =D

Back to the topic, wait, what's the topic?

Lets speak of SPM since you'll most probably not speak of it until next year for once and maybe in the future with your kids.
HAHAHAH. IF I have kids, I can imagine being a common mom saying "you better study or you'll regret, like me"
SCRATCH THAT! I better not get results that sucks.

So yeah, SPM! =D
HAHAHAH. I'm actually not happy lah. I'm typing without emotions -_____-|||

And suddenly, I don't want to talk bout it. I scribbled nonsense lah. T.T

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I think I've matured.
NOT.
HAHAHHAHA.
I think I know why I'm always restless.
My brain is ALWAYS debating with itself.
It's so noisy it feels like you're in pasar malam.
If it's not debating, it'll daydream. Or sing.
Oh well, at least I'm using my brain.
HAHAHAHAHAHAAH.
Oh wait, no? HAHAHAHAHAH.

2010 is coming to an end. Yes, same old saying, time flies.
REALLY FAST.
SPM's ALMOST over.
It didn't even felt like it started!

Started painting shoes again.
WALAO, my paint dried up. -____-||| sien.

Okay la, malas wanna type d. Bye!

P/S: Walao, I can't control the wordings. -__-|| All diff size. Kao lat.

The other me.

2010-12-11T19:21:00.001+08:00

Read my other blog just now.
Wah, I so violent.
Even I got scared of myself.
HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Happy happy day people =)

Does anyone still read my blog?
Alaaaaaa.

No title lahhh.

2010-11-18T03:40:00.003+08:00

When everything goes wrong, you will eventually come back to your blog.
Whine whine whine.
Then forget bout it.

Aaahhhh. You!
You, who made me break the promises I made to myself.

I think I'm sane.
Really.

I can cut you into pieces.

2010-08-17T22:47:00.003+08:00

Certain people just have to annoy you when you're already moody and pissed.
Patience Theola, patience.
Thanks to you certain people, facebook is now annoying.
THANKS SO MUCH LA HOR.

And, I know what I'm capable of.
Don't ask me my ambition if you're not gonna support me or doubt my ability.
Oh, Theola, you sure you can do it? Too hard for you lah!
-_______________-||||||
Seriously hor, make sure I don't see you after I achieved them.

AND, I hate it when adults ask me what I want to be and after I tell them they start with the, yerr, you want to do that meh? Not good lah.
Become teacher/ doctor/ etc lah.
YOU GO BECOME ONE LAH, TALK SO MUCH.
And when I tell them I don't know, oh, I'm useless, pathetic, until now don't know what I'm gonna do.
Hello, still young okay. Not dying soon. ISN'T NOW THE TIME FOR ME TO FULLY CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDIES INSTEAD OF FINDING OUT MY FUTURE?
Don't kacau me okay!

Okay, I'm done. Fuuuhhhhhhhhh. Bye.

Cooler Than Me.

2010-07-29T22:36:00.002+08:00

Theola Puah Khai Ching.
The ever angsty and rebellious kid.
Please do not attempt to trigger her anger.

P/S: Happy Birthday, Shuanger! =D

Pastor Henry says.

2010-07-25T22:17:00.003+08:00

Joke #1

Guys only open the car's door for the ladies because of 2 reasons.

Reason 1: The car is new.
Reason 2: The girl is new.

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Joke #2

An elderly couple was seen holding hands. Surprised by that, a much younger couple said,

Young couple: Wow, after so many years and you both are still so loving.
Old men: I'm just preventing her from shopping.
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-Same situation, different couple-

Old men: Self-defense.

P/S: I'm updating both tumblr and blogspot. Tumblr: theolapuah.tumblr.com

P/P/S: I loveeed today. Chao ta! =D

Life After You.

2010-07-21T08:26:00.003+08:00

It has been 3 months since I last saw you.
I wonder how are you doing there.
How do you look like now?
Would I recognize you if I'm there too?
It felt like it was just yesterday that you left.
I miss you.

I wish you were here.

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong

Here in heaven

Guilt in happiness. Not happy anymore?

2010-06-07T14:03:00.002+08:00

ARGH! Theola, stop making the same stupid mistake.
I'm happy but frustrated at the same time.

P/S: I swam across, I jumped across for you. Oh what a thing to do. Cause you were all yellow.
Hi, Mr. Sunshine =)

Oh Lord, forgive me. =\

2010-05-31T17:27:00.001+08:00

If there's no soalan bocor, I think my brain would have bocor-ed by now.
And! Is there any questions on Salts ?
Cause I don't remember reading it and doing it. =\
Oh, kadavale.

How Do You Live.

2010-05-26T14:37:00.000+08:00

Where's the JPS office?
I'm burning it down.

The post contains a lot of the word 'felt'. Because this is what I feel. Or felt. Whatever.

2010-05-02T21:40:00.004+08:00

Last month, I've been fired with the question, "How are you?" and "You okay?"
And, my answer was obviously YES, I'M FINE. Except to Jian Hang cause I wanted him to feel guilty. XD Oh, and I don't know why we just get annoyed with each other easily these days. Must be the pressure. HAHAHA!! Back to the question. I say yes, I'm okay because that's the only thing I can say. Do you really expect me to say, "no, I feel like shit"? Hahaha, I KNOW you guys meant well, I just wanted to tell you guys what I think only lah okay. No offence, seriously.

- 16th April 2010 ( Friday)
You know how people say before something happens, you will feel uneasy or, I don't know how to put it. So, I was obviously in school ( great kid ) and only a few of us came. I practically slept the whole time. I know it's part of my routine in school, HAHAH, but on that day I felt extra tired. REALLY! I don't know why. Right before school ended, around 12.25 probably, I felt really weird. I felt like crying, screaming or punching someone, I don't know. It's just an emotion I cannot describe. I told Yan Hui about it. I also said to her, "I think something bad is going to happen."

Around 1.30 pm, I reached home. Usually, wait no, it's every time. Okay, every time I reach home, the first thing I'll do is remove my shoes. Then I'll remove my socks, throw my bag aside, remove my pinafore. The next thing I'll do is ask my mom, " mummy, eat what?" Oh, my brother just came back from Malacca the day before that. But on that day, instead of my normal routine, I went to take a nap before eating. No, I HARDLY do that. I just didn't have the mood to eat.

And also, usually after I eat I'll take a nap and then sleep until 7 pm ( Walao, I know) unless I have tuition. But on this very day, I woke up at 2.30, I think. It was all of a sudden thing. There were no distractions or any sort. I JUST WOKE UP. When I wake up, I normally go back to sleep or just feel sleepy lah. I don't know why on that day I just woke up and felt numb. I saw my mom walking to my dad. FYI, my dad was bedridden for 7 years. So he lies on the bed the whole day in the living room. And, somehow, I just happen to stare. I usually look away cause there's nothing to look at.

My mom suddenly said, " eh mei, come look at daddy." My dad's face was pale! Like really yellow. My dad looked really awkward, like something's wrong with him. My mom quickly called my brothers out from the room. So, all four of us gathered around the bed. My mom said, " daddy is not breathing anymore." Then ALL of us immediately checked whether his heart was still breathing or not. The moment my brother touched my dad's neck, he made a super loud noise and gasped for air. It was so scary I think all our hearts stopped for a second. My mom, and my brothers kept calling him. "Daddy, daddy!" ** shakes him** Mom: "Thomas! Thomas!" **shakes him** I just stood there, feeling awkward, angry, sad, and hopeless.

My dad did the same thing again, he tried to inhale air a minute after the previous. My eldest brother kept checking whether he's still alive or not. And mom started tearing and said, " daddy bo liao" ( which means, no more) and prayed in hokkien, " God, if you are really bringing him away please let him go peacefully and not suffer." Again, I just stood there, not even calling him. Until today I felt like a useless daughter for not even calling him daddy for the last time. Then he took his LAST breath. And just stopped moving entirely. My brain went chaotic. I just kept thinking, WHY?! Why now? I haven't even gotten the chance to really know him? Why only after 7 years? My brother kept pressing my dad's chest, trying to keep him alive. What was most heartbreaking was when I realised my brother had the most memory of him between the 3 of us. And, never mind, I'll leave that out.

The whole thing just woosh, passed by. Okay, I lazy wanna type already. I'll skip the whole 3 days thing.

Although I still can't get over the fact that he's gone, at least he's with the person I love most. Like what everyone said, he's running, smiling, laughing and happy now.

P/S: I still wish he wasn't bedridden. Then I could have known him better and know what it really feels like to have a dad that could communicate with me everyday. But then, if it was, I don't think I could let him go today, could I?

P/P/S: I want to type more, but my fingers don't wanna cooperate. Might edit this post. MAYBE only lah. Bye!

2010-04-29T13:59:00.001+08:00

I grew tired of your lies,
so I left.

Hot chick.

2010-04-22T23:22:00.001+08:00

NEVER call your girlfriend your 'chick'.
If she's the chick then I suppose you're the bapa ayam lah?

Pissy Missy.

2010-03-23T22:43:00.003+08:00

Be patient, Theola.
Be very patient.
** breathe in, breathe out **

There's no point in losing your patience and yelling at everyone.
You can do better than that.
** SWALLOWS AIR **
Hahahah!

So true, respect doesn't come snap! just like that.

2010-03-20T00:29:00.002+08:00

I'm boreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed!!!!
Hi there!

Why are you not replying me?! =\

Oh, bye!

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!